I have already answered your question. I will be making my kind of cinema with my own money, knowing fully well that the money will be lost. I have done that. At a time when i was not financially comfortable, i invested the first advance i got from a producer in the film, JALAMARMARAM--my first screenpalay, which won me an award. Have u seen the film? no. Because there was no distributer to buy it. We travelled with the film carrying a video projector and showed it the people across the state. Annum Mazhayyayiruunnu, my tele-film which won many awards was also produced by me.
And about repaying...I am not that romantic politically. When the great poet W B Yeats died---he had fought for Ireland's freedom---, another poet W H Auden wrote: Ireland has her weather and madness still, for poetry makes nothing happen.
I am not a cynic; but, still. i believe we live in a time when art makes nothing happen.